The Unlikely Missionary

Ain't nothing special about me. I'm just like you. I struggle. I get mad. I cuss from time to time. People piss me off. I have bad days. I doubt. I love. I laugh. I cry. I drink a  little every now and then. I love coffee. My kids and husband are my heart. The only difference is that when God sees me instead of my sin, He sees the blood of Jesus. I think people think that when you get saved you become perfect. That is a crock of bull! I will never be perfect. However, when I am in the midst of all that life brings I am never walking it alone. Jesus is always walking with me. There is comfort in knowing that I don't walk alone. I still am a sinner and always will be. My salvation doesn't stop my sinning, it allows me access to God in spite of my sin. I am not immune to bad things happening. Good things do not magically happen to me all the time. I am not rich and I am not happy all the time. All I did was accept God's gift of forgiveness and salvation. I've latch...

The earth was new, a great frontier The perfect place to spread his fear So satan set up shop to draw them in Bright lights to display all his wares "Come on in, forget your cares" That devil knew just how to package sin People came from far and wide Not a guilty soul denied But before they knew they'd been deceived They'd step inside and never leave They said his eyes were black as coal His voice a shudder to the soul He preyed upon the broken and the proud He told them they were lost for good No one loved them and who would Before too long he owned that fallen town And from inside the gates they'd wail: Who can save us from this hell? And as their hopes turned into tears He laughed and all his demons stood and cheered Then down a dirt road from the east Came one, they said, could slay the beast But did not fight with bullets or a sword They called him Mercy and at his side A thousand angels chose to ride And a...

Its easy to feel like you are a slave to your circumstances. Not too long ago I was feeling that way and sitting in it. Being weighed down by despair, pity, disappointment, anger, frustration. Allowing those things to poison my mind and spirit. And then I made the choice to be free. My situation hasn't changed but my outlook, my response, the way I live in that situation has. I've chosen freedom. God has set you free. Jesus died so that you can be free and the Father gives you the opportunity to choose to accept that freedom or live in captivity. We have bought the lie that Satan says that we don't have a choice. That there is no way to live victorious even in the worst of circumstances. It is his way to limit our power. He knows that if we get caught up in what we can see and lose hope he has effectively halted our growth, our praise, our worship, our ability to be resilient. He knows that if we let joy, hope, passion, praises, gratefulness, optimism to bubble up ins...

HALLELUJAH! The gates and doors were barred  And all the windows fastened down  I spent the night in sleeplessness  And rose at every sound  Half in hope of sorrow  And half in fear the day  Would find the soldiers breakin' through  To drag us all away  And just before the sunrise  I heard something at the wall  The gate began to rattle  And a voice began to call  I hurried to the window  Looked down into the street  Expecting swords and torches  And the sound of soldiers' feet  But there was no one there but Mary  So I went down to let her in  John stood there beside me  As she told me where she'd been  She said they've moved Him in the night  And none of us know where  The stone's been rolled away  And now His body isn't there  We both ran towards the garden  Then John ran on ahead  We fou...

What a week I had last week! I’m just glad I didn’t have to go through it alone. Each day and every step of the way God was there. My kids were sick, I helped a friend in need, and my husband had a flare of his pericarditis. It was the scariest one yet. And in my fear I had to stay calm to help Him and not frighten our babies. I only got through it by God’s grace and mercy. Life is but a vapor. But each day that open our eyes is God giving us another chance to get it right. It’s another chance for me to look at the beautiful faces of my husband, son and daughter and tell God thank you that you got me to this point so that I can have this moment. We don’t always get it right but God always gives us a reset. A day. Fresh grace. New mercy. My life is far from all the way together and there are days I struggle but God is ALWAYS good and I will be fine. I write this as I bask in the glory of the new mercy God has bestowed on me today. I am thankful. The Unlikely Missionary  ...

Trust me  Though you can't see  You can trust me  The way may be steep  You can trust me  Let me lead...trust me 

People only ask where God is when bad things happen. Why didn’t He stop the flood, the death, the ?  He could have. But life is full of good and bad. If God interfered in everything we would complain about that too. God created us to be people of choice. Our lives are a series of decisions most of which we make and some that others make that affect us. Either way we have to deal with the consequences. At the end of the day, no matter the outcome - good or bad- God is a good God. He wants what is best for us and often times we go through what we go through so that we can get to where God wants us to be. Look at Jonah for the example. He had to endure being in the belly of a fish in order to get it right. Mary and Martha lost their brother Lazarus in order to truly learn the power of God. We go through things not as punishment but as preparation. Our response is key. My response to hardship in my life is awful! I hate conflict, I hate not being in control of my circumstanc...