My faith in this moment is the only thing keeping me from falling apart so this title may seem a bit strange. I know we say that God is in control and that is true. He is always in control. He was in control during the Holocaust, he was in control during slavery, he is in control during the good and the bad. The Bible illustrates that very clearly. He is always in control. That doesn't diminish the harm that will come to millions of people. That doesn't erase the pain millions of people are experiencing. It doesn't stop the feeling that evil has won and is playing in our face in Jesus name. I know God is in control and yet I am struggling because there is nothing I can do make this right. As a Black woman in a position that only 2% of Black women get to. As a mom of two beautiful black children who people think it is ok to use and abuse for sport. As a daughter of two Elders who are in their golden years and should not have to worry that their health care might be stripped
Happy New Year... Almost. lol. 2023 was a year. I realized looking back that I didn't do New Years Eve post for 2023 and I didn't post in 2023 at all. I think that is an indication of the year that 2023 was for me. God you are so good! He has been faithful, loving, gracious but it has been hard. Not because God is not good but because the change had to happen in me. At the end of 2022 God gave me my word for 2023 which was rebuilt. At the time I thought it was just my life being rebuilt. I was fresh off a divorce, learning how to be a single mom and trying to pick up the pieces of my broken and fragmented life. I was excited because I needed my life rebuilt. But God always gives you what you need, not what you think you want and what He actually meant was it was to be me being rebuilt; mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically. My character examined, my faith explored and expanded. Damaris transformed. When I think of the blessings in my life this year the one that is